Consensual Rape

Stop! No! Please!

Those were the words that were coming out of my mouth

You heard them but disregarded them

we have been here before

But for some reason here again is not where I wana be

I don't know what you were thinking

Maybe that I was enjoying it 

Saying no but really meaning yes

This was no reverse psychology

I wanted to be here but not...here

I was ok until you started touching me

I held you off as long as I could but you were stronger

I jus wana get this over with...

I wana scream but because of who you are 

I didn't because we've been here before
I felt like a victim but was I, I know you

I cried but wouldn't let you see my face so I buried it in your neck

And told myself to just get through it

Pretend like you are enjoying it so it can be over

Then it was over and I layed in your arms

I needed to be held and you were the closes thing

Emotionally paralyzed

How did this happen
You were satisfied and feeling fine
I felt the opposite

I didn't even move because in my head 

I knew you would never see me again

Once I walk out your door
I'll be gone forever