I Use to Never Cry...

There was a time when I never cried

There were no feelings

Then one day I decided to let myself feel

Feel something for someone who apparently wasn't worthy 

Or worth it for that matter

And I cried 

I couldn't understand why 

Or what these 

Liquid words were dripping down my face 

I bounced back like that

And like THAT it was déjà vu all over again

All over again I found myself never crying

Never feeling 

Never feeling until he came along and and told me what I wanted to hear 

And it all sounded and appeared good Until the day

He left my heart unattended 

Abandoned

Broken

And i found myself drenched daily for months on end with these 

Empty liquid words

Tears

 I think I'm over that one but now the reason i Find myself crying today 

And all the other days

loneliness 

Wanting to be loved but feeling incapable 

Incapable because every time I try 

Or make an attempt to like...love...or wateva 

Im reminded of the past hurts

The past tears

And I say to myself I dont wana go thru that again

But here I am crying wanting to go thru that again

Because at least I was gratified temporarily 

Until of course the liquid words appeared 

Now all I can do is remember 

There was a time when I never cried